Dear God, Hear My Cries

You say fear not, for I am with you
But I've been alone for days on end
Bleached white walls surround but never give
In my current state I stop believing in you,
In me, in everything I once had
I relinquish, I offer to the universe
Everything you created for me
Hemispheres are dead weight
On the blades of my shoulders
And my legs quiver under their truth
I cannot take this any longer
Take it back, I opt out
I am truly not your strongest soldier
I cannot bear this quest, this trial by fire
Let me out, I give up
You lied to me, did you not
Never more than I can handle
Be still, I am with you,
Where are you in these moments alone
Where are you when six feet below
Feels like home
Not here, not by my side
Dear God, hear my cries
The darkness is eating me alive